I may just be too excited about blogging because it's still new to me, but I'm posting again already (don't get use to posts being this frequent). The topic of post number two- nothing related to my trip to Austria, but it is another part of me.
Composing music is a process. For some people it comes so amazingly naturally that they can come up with a masterpiece in 10 minutes. For others it is a laborious task that creates frustration, moments of elation, and frequently (for me at least), writer's block.
Do you know that sometimes I get writer's block in my life? I just have no clue what to do sometimes - it stops me up short, and usually ends up with me sleeping a lot more than normal. People make fun of me for not being able to make decisions sometimes, but this is the worst. This is when I can't figure out what to do next in my life and I replay over and over the past couple of days. I do this when writing music as well. On piano especially. I will get stuck somewhere, so I go back and play the most recent line over and over and over again. Then, when my frustration is at an all time high, I will just throw something down on the page, call it good, and go on.
Other times, however, when I am patient enough, I will wait until the inspiration returns. You know what happens? Usually when I wait, the result is much better.
(As you can kind of tell already, this blog is going to be a semi-inspirational, semi-reflective type of blog so bear with me as I get all "deep - thinker" on you. )
I find the parallel with music and life in this sense. When I push my plans into motion just because I am anxious and can't wait, something is bound to go wrong. At the least, the ride will be a bit bumpy. When I wait, however...patiently and quietly wait, it tends to elicit better results. This does not imply at all that I use this as an excuse to be lazy. That's not what I'm saying. I'm saying that patience is a virtue (have you heard that somewhere before?). It is important to not wish moments of your life away because we are so anxious to know what happens next...That is a difficult thing for a 20 year old to do, let me tell ya'. My goal is to live each moment as if it is entirely important by itself. I won't just slop something together so that I can finish my composition or make a decision. I won't replay the past over and over hoping to find resolution or inspiration.
I will live my life to make meaning. Then, when I'm not expecting or waiting for something specific to happen, when it does, it will be so perfectly and beautifully composed.
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